Saraswati thoughts on Gender

I started cross-dressing when I was in high school. I was a cute girl with long blond hair and a slender figure, but sometimes secretly in my bedroom I'd dress up like the skater boys I always hung out with - I'd tuck my hair in a cap, wear super-extra-baggy shorts and some skater-punk sweatshirt thing and I loved it!

It wasn't that I wanted to be a boy, it was more that I had trouble feeling satisfied only being a girl.

When I was being a girl, I over did it, femininity to a tee, as glamorous as could be.

But the truth is I never really identified with anything until I identified with Spirit, with Saraswati in particular - that light, effervescent creativity which drives the best of the best creative expressions. To me that behind-the-scenes energy was more real than anything happening in my physical life.

At my core I felt a Goddess, most purely. Yet I never knew how to express it, articulate it my day-to-day life. I honored her with yoga, with meditation and pranayama. I honored her with ritual, with song, with dance. But how to embody her in the world when she is so much more than just me?

In graduate school and also through new friends I'd attracted, I began to learn about gender as a fluid phenomenon and I explored the stories of transgendered people. I found I identified so much with what they were describing - this experience of having a "beingness" that was different from what their body expressed. That was how I felt too! Yet my experience was different, I know, for it wasn't male or female that was my struggle, it was human or non-human. I felt keenly that the truest essence of who I am had nothing to do with male or female or any kind of physical form at all, but was actually a limitless spiritual essence. How to express the inner God-self in an outward physical way?

When I meet transgendered people, I feel a sense of kindred spiritness with them for they too struggle with expressing who they are on the inside in the phyiscal world of their life path.

Easy Astrology for Fun!

It’s no joke, astrology is pretty complicated. I was trying to break it down for my friend Gudrun from Iceland and I think I came up with a pretty good analogy to share – but you can let me know!

If you think of yourself as a spaceship flying through the Cosmos - your spaceship make & model is your Sun.

The windshield by which you see what is coming towards you is your Rising Sign (or Ascendant).

The crew on board making things happen is your Moon.

The interior aesthetic design of the ship is your Venus.

The fuel-power is your Mars.

The data-system on board is your Mercury.

The "warp speed" function is your Jupiter.

The “abort mission” function is your Saturn.

The smooth or treacherous terrain of your ship’s journey through space & time is determined by Uranus, Neptune & Pluto.

You’ve all got it now, right? Now you just need to know how the planets are working for the particular & unique you!

Love,
Carter
The Spirit Solver

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~Enjoyment~

At the end of the day, it is all about enjoyment, isn’t it?

This was the thesis of one of my favorite books in Theology School – that our true human purpose to activate our fullest enjoyment of each moment.

That is definitely the theology I am down with!

Tomorrow is our New Moon is Taurus – the sign that knows enjoyment the best!

So sometime tomorrow, give yourself the gift of enjoyment. Take a moment to muse, what do I really, really enjoy about life the most?

Ask for more it!

May all your wishes come true.

Enjoying you,
Carter
The Spirit Solver

Love Springs True

Today is a radiant Full Moon in Libra – the sign of beauty and partnership/love and justice. This Full Moon passage brings to us the opportunity to reflect on where we are standing in our most meaningful relationships.

How is love showing up in your life? Is there lack or unfairness?

Where are you centering your values? In yourself, your true being?

Are you fulfilled by your life path? Who is carrying that responsibility?

What are you giving away in Love’s name? Should you be?

And, most importantly, where is love’s source? Really.

Now is the time for being really honest with yourself about love, values, relationships, fulfillment. In one more week, the Venus Retrograde will be through. Love and enjoyment will rise more apparently to the surface of your life. If you are honest with Love today, you will reap her reward tomorrow.

Love,
Carter
The Spirit Solver

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Do You Know Your Rising Sign?

Last week, at a yard sale in my neighborhood, I found a brilliantly insightful astrology book for only $1!

It is all about the importance of the rising sign (also called the Ascendant) in an astrology chart.

It has changed my thinking a lot.

According to this astrologer, if we all stay centered inside ourselves, viewing the world at large discriminantly through our particular viewing lens (our rising sign), much of life’s chaos would pass us by.

What if Aries rising would seize their self-confidence, so as not to push others out of their way?

What if Taurus rising would feel secure inside themselves, so as not to hoard friends and belongings?

What if Gemini rising would filter out other people’s details, so as not to excessively compare themselves?

What if Cancer rising was at home in themselves, so as not to take on other people’s negative emotions?

What if Leo rising would embrace the magic of inner glory, so as not to lose themselves in life’s glitter & drama?

What if Virgo rising would dismiss the endless details that do not matter, so their pure spirit shines forth?

What if Libra rising enjoyed inner balance of love and harmony, manifesting their own beauty in the world?

What if Scorpio rising would realize the darkness in existence is not personal, so their powerful soul can become a beacon of transformation?

What if Sagittarius rising would realize that true enjoyment is within, so they will unfold into luminous success?

What if Capricorn rising would see their own self-worth, so their climb to success is not self-punishing?

What if Aquarius rising would realize soulful truth from within, so as not to be a rebel without real purpose?

What if Pisces rising knew with confidence that all phenomena is illusory, so the strange myriad of appearances do not all have to be about them?

Our individual lives have so much to offer us once we see through illusion and touch our own soul.

Love,
Carter
The Spirit Solver

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